Saturday, 14 January 2012

Just another post..

4th August 2011

So I haven't been doing well lately. I still cant find a house so looks like uni a big fat no no. My boyfriend suggested I do an open university course, which I did look at and applied too. Just waiting to hear back from them as i'm not sure if I am allowed to get financial support ''/. I handed in my notice at work and feel like a tit if I ask to withdraw it. I don't even know what's happening now. If I do this open uni thing im stuck at home. I want to go to uni and experience it all. I doubt I can whilst i'm stuck on dialysis :(

I feel like I haven't really been able to get a good chance in life. I did bad at school because I was never there due to health, I had to take a year out after college because of starting dialysis. Lets be honest, I never had a chance, my mum fell pregnant with me when she was 16 had me at 17 and raised me by herself. 3 years later she decides to get married and have two more kids then 5 years later gets a divorce.. So now she is stuck in a part time job claiming benefits in a shitty council house. Yeh sure I have a roof over my head, but the amount of times we have had the council threaten to take away our house is unreal! I don't wanna end up like that! three kids, two dads that have both walked out, part time job, benefits.. it's no life for anyone really! This is why it means so much to me to do well in life but have my f***ing health holding me back. So frustrating!

Really annoys me when people have the chance to make something of themselves but instead they throw it away. What idiots! But I guess if they want to throw away their lives it's down to them!

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